option was for her to have an abortion. But
my mom, clearly motivated by God's hand
in her life, decided she wanted to have the
baby. Shortly after I was born she decided to
move away from her so
called support systems
and took a train from
Bangor, Maine, to San
Diego, California.
everything she could to give me the life she wanted
me to have and thought I deserved. I grew up going
to Disney Land . . . I remember having great under�
the�tree Christmases . . . I think I got a Sega as a
present one year pretty much right when it came
out. Still, the absence of my father left a huge hole
in my heart, a hole I learned to fill with all sorts of
things that really didn't fit. I tried to fill this empty
feeling with work, with school, with nice things, with
money and eventually with pornography.
my life, to show me the way. I had come to the point
where I finally gave up trying to fill my life with things
because they never filled the emptiness.
desire for Him. I ran down to the altar and gave my
life to Jesus.
Jesus was in my heart, but to be
completely honest, at first He felt
like a bad roommate, someone
who came in and began throwing
It didn't feel so good anymore. He threw out the person
I thought I was--the person my mom raised me to be.
He threw out things my culture told me I needed to
have in my heart. He even threw out my girlfriend as
well as quite a few other friends.
who might never have been born is now about to be a
Salvation Army officer -- a member of the session of
cadets known as the Proclaimers of the Resurrection
of Jesus Christ. This sequence of events marks, in
my view, a true testimony to the awesome power of
our God to use a life that could have been destroyed
to give Him glory. My life verse, Galatians 2:20, says,
"I no longer live, but Christ lives in me." Every day I
live my life with the understanding that although my
worldly father may have given me up, my heavenly
Father has called me to give up my life daily so I can
live to glorify His name.
as an officer in The Salvation Army in the USA
Western Territory last month.